Tuesday, December 28, 2010

My radiant silver heart


written 12/30/09
My radiant silver heart,
You amaze me with the presents in your presence. Allowing flow, harmony, resonance to gift you grace. I blanket you in warmth and love. Death is fearless to the yes that is your life. The places you See from have you feeling valued, honored, adored and pleased. Remember that you are anchored inn me along your journey into the woods. You claim your beauty truth and desires. please allow for unfolding. Release mental noise from the longing future. Create space for now. Focus on creativity, radially sharing how you love. Your passion for sharing makes you receptive. Thank you for being committed to your healing. Please move boldly, you weren't created to hide or play small. You are wild, sexy and free. Evoke me by claiming your beauty, truth and desire.

Monday, December 27, 2010

my career vows

My career vows
*I am project minded, dependable and organized
*I am motivates and enthusiastic when I am inspired
*I care about people and love big
*I value enriching lives
*Life can be full of wondrous joys and deep sorrows
*I believe in valuing feelings and the power of a listening heart
*I see the heath benefits and importance of feeling apart of one’s community
*I want to be a part of a organization that inspired me through its impact on our community
*I see that each person is a unique traveler along their own path
*I am honored when people fee safe and share their life with me
*Laughing is great medicine
*I would like to be a beacon of support and a stand for celebration
*I believe time is valuable
*I crate opportunities for self expression, sharing and feeling valued
*I enjoy the creation process and the friendships that can be built through art
*I see creativity as a form of meditation that allows for relaxation to surface
*I motivate and empower by using affirmations
*I admire the human spirit, compassion and limitless joy
*I create a laboratory of loving kindness

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Wave


A short story of Ram Dass…There are two waves drifting along
in the ocean, one a bit bigger than the other. The bigger wave
suddenly becomes very sad and upset. The smaller wave asks
what's wrong. "You don't want to know," the bigger wave says.
"What is it?" the small wave asks. "No - really - it's too terrible.
If you knew what I knew, you'd never be happy." The small
wave persists. Finally the big wave explains: "You can't see it,
but I can see that, not too far from here, all of the waves are
crashing on the shore. We are going to disappear." The small
wave says," I can make you happy with just six words, but you
have to listen very carefully to them." The big wave doesn't
believe it -- what does the small wave know that he doesn't –
but he's desperate. After a while of doubting and mocking the
small wave, the big wave finally gives in, and asks the small wave
to tell him. And so the small wave says:
"You're not a wave, you're water."

Serendipity


It’s almost time

It’s almost time…
To dance on the sounds of bliss and joy into the sunrise
As we welcome the changes of autumn into our lives.
Please stop and smell the roses and get a massage,
Remember that our hearts are ours to mold.

You may find a gift waiting to be opened,
Be aware of wonder
and see what yours.

Come to our picnic
Filled with your heart’s desires
And have a cup of lemonade.

We’ll chill on a bed of clouds
And gaze that the smiles and lights that decorate our sky.
Because faces will be painted,
With serendipity.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

shoes






"See, Words are like Shoes, They're just something You stand on
i wish You could be in my Shoes,
but they're probably so High, You'd fall off and die,
for You, Words are definitely not Shoes,
They're Weapons and Tools of Destruction,
and Your time is boring unless You're putting Something down,
what would Life be, if We believed what We read
with a Smile just hiding a Frown?
come now, isn't Life a little better with a pair of good Shoes?" ...Prince

Friday, August 6, 2010


cultivate your dream machine

Wisdom from Rainbow Brite

prayer


"The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays." Soren Kierkegaard

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Monday, July 26, 2010

The Prophet by Gibran


and the buds of your tomorrow shall blossom in my heart....

notes for reading The Prophet by Gibran

but i say to you that when you work you fulfill a part of the earth's furthest dream, assigned to you when that dream was born..

and when you work with love you bind yourself to yourself

work is love made visible

your joy is your sorrow unmasked the deeper that sorrows carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. when you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

for the breath of life is in sunlight and the hand of life is in the wind

i have met the soul walking upon my path

your Friend is your needs answered...and let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit

your thought is a bird of space, that in a cage of words may indeed unfold it wings but cannot fly.

and knows that yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream

even those who limp go not backwards

Losses Comfort



I long to be near the sound
that sheds light on the deep night

Can i find the courage
to live my heart's Truth?

I unfold with my reality
petal by petal
Knowing my sweetness
because of losses comfort.

Susie Suh - Seasons Change


Thursday, July 15, 2010



just right....


"all will open when you choose to trust."


"Perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave."
Rainer Maria Rilke


let love go

Express yo self

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

rope


i am playing a game with myself, clinging on to what wope i have

Let my love unravel

word treasure chest


innovative
intensify
introduce
organize
now
new
natural
miracle
accomplish
amaze
ambitions
amusing
appeal
anticipate
altering
affectionate
wild
savor
sizzling
authentic
soar
exuberant
answer
respond
supportive
high
unlock
follow
simplified
energetic
unfold
reveal
unconditional
revitalized
respond
responsive
simplified
seductive
encourage
elated
enhance
enrich
actions and results
self assured
treasure chest.

Divine Homesickness

Tears


"Tears are a river that take you somewhere. Weeping creates a river around the boat that carries your soul life. Tears lift your boat off the rocks of dry ground, carrying it down river to someplace new, someplace better. "

-Women who run with wolves

eternity vision


eternity vision by Xavi

"these are the trees i have found sitting by the side listening to their ambitions. I have heard the trees say to me that they are the ambitions of the earth to reach for the stars..."

-osho

Key


I know hold the key to creating my every desire

"It is not possible to consistently feel positive emotion about something and have it turn out badly--for the way you feel will tell you if you are allowing your natural Well-Being or not. Once you understand that the way you feel indicates your level of allowing or resisting, you now hold the key to creating anything you desire

Saturday, July 3, 2010

I'm going to marry Sarah Fimm



Let it Run -Sarah Fimm

Visions of loveliness
Visions of open hands
We're criss cross black dots
Hiding in the tree tops
Friend

Everybody looking with the same expression
Everybody looking with the same expression

Are you true Is it pure
Are you sure that you're there
Loved or gone
Crick crack
Just open the door
To the flood
Let it run wild
Let it run

So left choking on the beatury of a waking dream
Calling on the sky
Just to look less lonely

Everybody looking with the same expression
Everybody looking with the same expression

Are you true Is it pure
Are you sure that you're there
Loved or gone
Crick crack
Just open the door
To the flood
Let it run wild
Let it run

Everybody's busy looking down at the pavement
Seeing what I see

Are you true Is it pure
Are you sure that you're there
Loved or gone
Crick crack
Just open the door
To the flood
Let it run wild
Let it run

Monday, May 31, 2010

Can I Love My Desire?



I'm pushing at the moon,
only to get lost inside my clouded mind maze.
Walking through the trees afraid to be alone.
Longing for the life that is all around.

Thank you illusion.

Asking my spirit what it wants,
Kissed with magick lips that know the sun.
I find courage in my dance while knowing soul fulfillment,
I am alive as I liberate my pain,
and float with the stars.

butterflies


"I am a butterfly
I dance with the air
Change is my reason
Each moment is a gift,
a chance for me to float along my destiny"
-meggie

Thursday, May 27, 2010

The Alchemist


"Well why did you say that I don't know about love?" the sun asked the boy.

"Because it's not love to be static like the desert, nor is it love to roam the world like the wind. And it's not love to see everything from a distance, like you do. Love is the force that transforms and improves the Soul of the World. When I first reached through to it, i thought the Sould of the World was perfect. But later, I could see that it was like the other aspects of creation, and had its own passions and wars. It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be better or worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that's where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better then we are."
-The Alchemist Paulo Coelho

Stairs



Vaclav Havel said:

Vision is not enough; it must be combined with venture. It is not enough to stare up the steps; we must step up the steps.

Deepak Chopra's four questions


Recently seen in EnlightenNext Magazine, Deepak Chopra's four questions

What kind of world do you want to live in and what kind of world do you want your children and grandchildren to live in?

I want to live in a world where we value joy, expression, and sharing. I want my children to know how much their happiness matters in the world.

I hope all children know their heart as more powerful then their mind and fears.

In our future music and art are cherished and create connection. I want my children to live in a world where their education and health matter. They play outside with friends and feel safe.

Curiosity leads to discoveries and relationships.

My children know that they can ask questions and that their thoughts create a reality. When my children feel pain and loss they can cry, scream, hug, and have the freedom to feel what their feeling. The loss and pain my children experience gives them strength. My children have opportunities to realize their dreams and bring their own magick to this life. They see the planet as a gift from the forest to the sea, deserts to their home. My children are taught to love themselves and can have the courage to express themselves and constantly search for where their path is.



What is your role in bringing this about?

I am developing an art program that fosters creative expression, self-esteem, emotional and social exploration. The art program can be for boys and girls, women and men, people with special needs, it is inclusive and developmentally appropriate for its artists. Each art unit is rich with curiosity, limitlessness, choice, and success. The artists find treasures in themselves as they continue along their creative adventure. They see how empowering sharing and listening can be and they see their peers as beautiful and unique. They learn more about who they are and who they can be in their world. Each artists has a chance to see their strengths and weaknesses and grow. They can feel and express any emotion that is inside them. Their art gives them a chance to move their emotions. The artists problem solve, ask for help, and give support to each other. Because of their involvement in the art program our community is strengthened. Each artist feels the power of their creations.

I am committed to love, big love. A dream of mine is to connect with a caring, silly, loving man who wants to commit to having children with me. Our love for one another manifests itself with our children. Our struggles are comforted with warm memories and growth. My children, husband and I believe in one another and support one another in fulfilling and realizing our dreams even if they seem like fantasies. We create our own holidays. We dance. We swim and play with the sun. Because my husband and I love ourselves and each other so much we can raise a family.

I can also being a role model to all the girls in my life. I can claim my beauty, truth and desires and embrace my mind, body and spirit. I am committed to expanding even when i have breakdowns and don't know where to put my hope. I can honor and care for my body and create healthy habits. I can be a loving, honest, devoted sister to GG, Oli and Marisa. I can cherish all the women in my life and all the ways they love me even when i don't want to love myself.

Regarding the organizations that you're part of, what kind of team do you want to have and what kind of relationship do you want to have with this team?

I work for an organization called Opportunity For Independence. For the past three years I have developed relationships with each person i share my days with. I teach our clients how to live their independence, identify their desires/needs/wants, and realize that they are capable of living the life they want. I teach them how to take care of their bodies, minds, homes and hearts. We are a team that trusts each other. I can ask my team for help and i can offer a hand when needed.

Wherever i work I am project minded and passionate about enriching lives. I believe that time is valuable and i care about people. I am energetic, and enthusiastic when i am inspired. I appreciate humor and my days are decorated with laughter even when there is frustration, blocks, and anger.

I would like to become a midwife to the dying and support people as they make the transition towards dying. I value altered states of consciousness and see death as the ultimate altered state. I am committed to cultivating the presence to be with death with fearless compassion. I want to create a team of healers who bring their gifts to people who are dying. together we create a program that establishes a philosophical commitment and respects the human journey as sacred.



What do you see as the primary need in our current cultural moment?

The primary need for our cultural movement is toward holistic heart connections. We will no longer need to look outside ourselves for approval, success, joy and meaning. We need to treat and see ourselves as whole and in doing so we can care for our planet, community, home, families, children, and our spirit.

All in One Serendipitous Day

Gave Kim her Super Hero Top and Capes. She said she felt her superpowers activated. what more could i ask for as a seamstress?

I was driving on the freeway and saw a poster for Saint Vernon hanging on the walking bridge at university. Not sure about him. Research time.......I was driving to meet a women on Vernon street. Funny and silly....


A horoscope i followed by Susan Miller said this, "When it comes to love and fun, the full moon on May 27 (operative plus or minus four days), will bring you a chance to enjoy romance in a very tender, loving way. By this time in the month you will have scored a number of career victories and have earned time off, making this time of the full moon all the sweeter. Again the gang of three - Uranus, Jupiter, and Saturn - will be ready to offer gifts, sure to bring snap, crackle, and pop to your days."

I got home form work feeling tired today. I am waiting to hear about my future. Waiting to hear about a possible job promotion and waiting to see if i got my low income ticket for Burning Man. Checking the mail. There was a large envelope for me. I didn't recognize the address. Inside were beautiful cards made by the children Penny supports. They thanked me for helping their mother's on mother day.

I can't think of a sweeter way to experience tender love with the full moon tonight then with the gift of the cards from the children.

Unexpected love is energizing

This youtube link is shared with me by a community member today....



I have started to own and realize how i want to have children one day.

Children give me hope

I am reading the Alchemist by Paulo Coelho curious about my own personal legend and the treasure i seek...a quote popes into my day via Amanda on facebook.. "It is by going into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, there lies your treasure." - Joseph Campbell"

I am surrounded by the omens i am reading about all in one serendipitous day

It's just love that's all...

Counting Waves



Why do you fear change
You're folding in trust
And I'm trying to help you see
Your eyes so fixed and hollow
Only serve to paralyze this dream

Go on carry on
I'll be counting waves
Go on carry on
I'll be counting waves

When you go near the edge
You'll see the waters rise
The tide under this moonlit sky
Will pull you out
And take you into

Why do you feel shame
Isn't this love
Cause I'm trying to help you see
Can you not seek to follow
Can you not seek to know
The space between

Go on carry on
I'll be counting waves
Fear not to last
This too shall pass
Love your days

When you go near the edge
You'll see the waters rise
The tide under this moonlit sky
Will pull you out
And take you into

Why do we fear change
When everything's loved
And we're trying to find the key
Today is just a shadow
Of what tomorrow could be

Go on carry on
Be strong
Counting waves
Fear not to last
This too shall pass
Love your days

When you go near the edge
You'll see the waters rise
The tide under this moonlit sky
Will pull you out
And take you into....

Sarah Fimm Counting Waves

Bones



Love and Life are to be lived by the bones -Clarissa Pinkola Estés

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

junko mizuno









I love Junko Mizuno and her dark art.

Sarah Fimm - White Birds



Make your garden grow
White bird
Dream out loud doe
While we send her out to you

Cold is the wind on
Your blue wing

We don't stand a chance
We're white birds

When you come
I'll crawl to your perch
When you come
I'll crawl to your perch

Sending love to you

It's a lovely thing
How we found a pearl
Through wind worn hell swells cracked
Shells melt
As we find our world

When you come I'll crawl
To your perch
When you come I'll crawl
To your perch

Sending love to you

Sarah Fimm

Surrender


" In complete Surrender
to the Divine Plan
Allowing Heaven on Earth
and the Manifestation
of One with All."

Marie DeLaPaz

I surrender my pain
I surrender my love
I surrender my joy

the internet


maybe if i yelll "Ok focus!" it will help?...We'll kinda for a second, becasie i realize that I'm getting sucked into a votex known as the internet. A rabibt hole of time and space that leads me right back to where i started.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz


Love is action
Practice Love
Love explores and takes risks
Let go of the past begin every day at a higher level of love
I love so much that i don't "need" any one else love.
To be a master of love i must practice love
Love is generous
Love has no resistance to pleasure
Love has no obligations
Generosity, freedom ad love will create the most beautiful relationships

"Life is nothing but a dream,
and if we are artists,
then we can create our life with love,
and our dream becomes a masterpiece of art."

I am here to play and have fun.
Life is an expression of love. I am life

I have eyes of love
I love you for no reason
I can become responsible for my half of relationships and be aware of my track for love/fear
Relationship is an art
Happiness is the result of love coming out of me
Accept the truth and intent a new beginning

I can find light in enlarged experiments with self expression.

Let go of the past and begin every day at a high lever of love.
When i am wise my life is controlled by my heart.
The love i need to hunt lives within myself

The world is a laboratory for my soul that can allow me to fulfill realities.

notes from the book The Mastery of Love
by Don Miguel Ruiz

A Prayer


I call forth,
for my highest good,
Light, dark, love, grace and faith in despair.

I know that when I align my emotions with my intent,
I can manifest anything I desire for my soul to glow.

I have a love for myself that penetrates deep,
and rests in the empty stillness that lives and longs in my heart.

I encourage self-expression and inspire creativity in who I be.
I allow my passion to come to life,
to share and know that I can radically express how I love.

I love my body and my reflection in the mirror.
When I am present
I am a present.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Keller Williams Jam In The Dam Stupid Questions



Who, what, where, when, why, how come?

What does your joy look like today?

What in the world is beautiful to you?

How do you want to be seen?

How do you love?

What is the foundatin of our relationship?

Where/what do you find refuge in and how does it bless your life?

What brings you back to center when life throws you off blance?

Who is your best self?

How does one become a living manifestation of divinity?

How do you define soul?

How do you feel light and know it is there?

What are you not seeing?

What tools are you using to reveal the treasure of your heart?

What is your favoirte fairytale?

Is becoming a wise person the product of doing many unwise things?

Climbing a tree is...

If i were a raindrop i would...

what i know about rabbits is...

draw eyes

inside the box with a big red bow is....

sunshine makes me feel?

inside the cave..

what is a rainbow?

what skills do you want ot learn?

how can i best serve?

Can you be your own hope?

What does prayer mean to you?

What is your muse?

What do you want our relationship to be?

How can our realtionship support one another?

What do you want to experiance together?

What is it like to awaken?

What is the most important thing to teach to children?

What experiance has made you more understanding?

You decied to do something you've never done before, what is the first step?

Friday, January 22, 2010

Enough




Enough lying to myself
Enough hiding my heart with fantasy
Enough searching in places that will hurt me
Enough attracting and be attracted to the unavailable
Enough of these bullshit safety mechanism and programs that prevent me from having intimacy
Enough pretending he wants me
Enough pretending I'll have him
Enough comparing myself to her
Enough self-sabotaging
Enough hating myself so much that I don't freely give love and receive it
Enough believing that I don’t deserve
Enough holding on to the last drops of hope when I’m floating in an ocean

Embrace




I embrace my vision
I embrace the power of manifestation
I embrace fear
I embrace self-worth
I embrace motivation
I embrace celebration
I embrace patients
I embrace limitless joy
I embrace adventure
I embrace community
I embrace my aloneness
I embrace my wholeness
I embrace sleep
I embrace time
I embrace support
I embrace my body
I embrace sex and turn on
I embrace grace
I embrace frustration
I embrace rejection
I embrace courage
I embrace laughter
I embrace ritual
I embrace sadness
I embrace flow
I embrace breath
I embrace yes
I embrace inspiration
I embrace play
I embrace dance
I embrace death